Guidelines for the Perfect Goodbye - Chapter 225
The room they were left alone in was silent, filled with an almost palpable stillness. A warm spring breeze brushed against the window but lost all its strength the moment it drifted indoors. It felt as if the late spring air had suddenly plunged to freezing temperatures. Cecilia pulled the shawl around her shoulders tighter, instinctively seeking warmth.
The man who usually appeared calm reacted unexpectedly to this small action. The shawl Cecilia wrapped around herself was the very cloak that Nigel had tossed her with a hint of disdain. Sheâd forgotten it was his, to the point where it had become nothing more than a piece of fabric to her.
But, that was from her perspective. It was all too obvious how it would appear to othersâan audacious girl who disrupted a noble ladyâs birthday party, wearing another manâs cloak in front of her fiancĂ©. It would certainly raise eyebrows.
âSo, it was Nigel Rosencrantz after all.â
âDid you come here without knowing who was involved?â
âArenât you going to ask why Iâm here?â
âNormally, that would be the first question,â Cecilia replied coolly, âbut it seems you already know.â
âThere arenât many people aware I stayed behind. The Heens family has taken all the scandal onto themselves for today.â
âThen, how did you find out, Lieutenant?â
Logan interrupted her before she could finish.
âI found the invitation suspicious.â
ââŠSuspicious?â
âSomeone I wouldnât expect to invite me⊠Why would they call me on such a day? That thought struck me suddenly, soâŠâ
He smiled slightly.
âI did a little digging.â
Cecilia hadnât found it odd that Count Heens would invite Logan. After all, Logan aligned with the Countâs goals.
But peopleâs perceptions are often different from reality, and Logan knew just how uneasy the Countâs social circle felt about him.
âAnd⊠did you find anything?â
âI learned that it was the Marquisâs son who instigated the whole thing. One of the servants informed me briefly.â
Nigel inviting Logan? That was unexpected. Logan had no connection with Guinevere, let alone Ulysses, nor did Nigel have any reason to be interested in him.
âBut whyâŠâ
âWhy?â
Logan gave her a cold, sardonic smile.
âIf I were your lover, I would have acted the same way. Watching my lover with an official fiancĂ© would be difficult to bear.â
ââŠâŠâ
âIf only you knew the truth about my relationship with Nigel.â
It would make sense if they were actually lovers. But she and Nigel were merely in a temporary, transactional relationship.
While she still couldnât fully grasp Nigelâs actions, Cecilia chose to stay silent. A misunderstanding in this pretend situation was, after all, quite convenient.
Logan continued,
âI should have realized when you said you didnât even want to be in a relationship. I was slow to catch on.â
A trace of bitterness hovered on his elegantly upturned lips.
âNow that you know, perhaps itâs time toâŠâ
âIt does make me feel a bit foolish, fighting my way here after seeing your family on the guest list.â
ââŠâŠâ
âI knew it was a trap from the start.â
Logan walked over, pulling back the curtain and opening the window wider. As he leaned by the window, a cigarette between his lips, he looked both familiar and unfamiliar. He hadnât smoked in front of her in a long while.
ââŠI thought youâd quit.â
When she murmured quietly, he exhaled a trail of smoke and turned his face toward her. His expression was frigidâbrutally indifferent, detached, and cool.
Cecilia found it oddly reassuring. This was the Logan she knew, the one she was familiar with. She had always hoped heâd continue to see her with this kind of detachment, rather than giving her false hope.
She had no regrets about today. She knew she wouldnât regret it in the future, either. Sheâd always felt guilty toward him, but now she understood even that was misplaced.
Logan had despised her without any reasonable cause.
Why? She didnât know, nor did she care to investigate further.
âThat life ended back then.â
Even so, the weight of the cloak on her shoulders felt burdensome. Not because of this man before her, but because sheâd so easily accepted Nigelâs scent clinging to the fabric.
With a sudden, instinctive and emotional impulse, Cecilia tossed the cloak to the floor. There was no calculated thought behind it.
Loganâs gaze shifted abruptly from the window to her, settling on the discarded cloak. He stubbed out his cigarette in the crystal dish and turned his attention to Cecilia.
âHonestly, I never understood it.â
His well-built frame shifted as he directed his focus squarely on her.
âI hate even looking at myself sometimes. So why do I willingly subject myself to this?â
Cecilia furrowed her brow at his unexpected words. Sheâd been prepared for him to suggest ending the engagement once and for all or even to insist they never see each other again.
Rather than moving away, he was steadily closing the space between them, erasing the distance step by step.
âTo be honest, it doesnât suit my temperament or personality. Why am I doing this? Why do I⊠love you? And on my own terms, no less⊠Itâs honestly quite rude, isnât it?â
Marmalade:
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A confession already???? From a stoic ML candidate / unfeeling former husband ???? alkjfhlsdakjflksdjhflkjsdf guys I canât breatheeee
I doubted my eyes for a second there but itâs unmistakable, he really said the word LOVE lakjfldskjfldjk not just âlikeâ, literally ìŹë sarangggg