I Give Up on the BL Novel's Male Leads - Chapter 154
Could it be because of that?
For a moment, Illein had the thought that, if she couldnât avoid this marriage, she wanted to love Melias. Even if it meant using a love potion or some other means.
But even though the thought crossed her mind, it was difficult to make a decision immediately.
“Melias.”
“Yes?”
“If we hadnât met like this⌠what do you think would have happened?”
It was a meaningless hypothetical.
Just a momentary escape from reality.
However, Illein asked it because she wanted to give herself some assurance amidst the turmoil she was feeling.
“I donât think about hypotheticals.”
“Iâve never considered a âwhat ifâ in my life.”
“Then do you not believe in fate, Melias?”
“No.”
Illein smiled at his answer.
It was clear that she and Melias were very different in this regard. But for some reason, she didnât dislike it.
“So, Illein, do you believe in fate?”
Melias asked seriously. He clearly does not fully understand her perspective.
“Yes, I think I do.”
“Well, then I respect that. Iâll try to trust it as well.”
“Fate?”
“Yes, and the prophecies as well.”
Despite his lack of full understanding, Illein felt grateful for his efforts to try and understand. She couldnât help but smile a little.
“Well… maybe if we hadnât met like this, I think I would have fallen in love with you the moment I got to know you.”
“âŚIllein.”
“Melias, you have everything Iâd like in a person. Youâre admirable, impressive, and you never speak unnecessarily, which makes you so thoughtful. Youâre also very capable… and I truly respect that.”
Illein was speaking honestly, without holding back any of her feelings.
“Really?”
“Yes.”
“I… I also think youâre amazing, Illein. If I were in your situation, I probably wouldâve hated the world and been pessimistic about everything.”
Melias, too, was speaking candidly about his thoughts. He admitted that if he were in her shoes, he wouldn’t have been able to endure it.
“âŚMelias.”
“Actually, itâs not just the conditions that make me want you to be my wife. I think your strength and determination, even in tough situations, are admirable.”
At that moment, Illein felt an even greater sense of trust in his words.
It was a different feeling from the fluttering excitement in her heart.
So, Illein decided that she would place her trust in Melias for now. She had made up her mind to prepare the love potion.
“Melias, I was wondering⌠could you possibly buy me some magic tools?”
Melias was surprised, since it was the first time Illein had asked him to buy something for her. However, he interpreted her request as her depending on him, and he smiled warmly in response.
“Melias?”
“Oh, sorry. I wasnât mocking you. Itâs just… Iâm happy you asked for something.”
Melias took a card from his pocket.
“What is this?”
“With this, you can buy anything in the name of the Wignum family. At least in the capital.”
“Wow!”
It was a kind of token.
It signified that the Wignum family guaranteed payment.
Apart from the Wignum family, very few houses in the capital held such cards.
“This is…”
“If youâre from our family, everyone has one of these. Even the servants use them from time to time.”
For the people of the Wignum family, it wasnât anything special.
Though the servants had a spending limit, they still used such cards.
But the gold card he handed her had no spending limit. It was one of the two cards Melias owned.
“This… is precious.”
“I hope it will help with your studies, even if just a little.”
“Oh, no… I only need it once…”
“Then, would you at least keep it until you graduate?”
“âŚAh.”
“When we marry, weâll make one in your name. Itâll be⌠platinum.”
Melias said this thinking that silver would suit Illein better than gold.
“And what if I end up buying something extremely expensive with it?”
Illein, noticing his continued devotion, playfully teased him, feeling a mischievous streak emerge.
“What would you buy thatâs so expensive?”
But Melias didnât flinch at all.
“Maybe a mansion.”
Illein pushed the joke further.
“Are you talking about a newlywed house?”
But at his calm response, Illein was taken aback.
“Wait, what? No, that… um…”
Illein couldnât give a proper answer and fumbled for words.
Melias didnât understand her reaction.
The things she was asking about were nothing expensive for the Wignum family.
In fact, he was pleased that she had asked him about it.
It was then that Melias recalled a conversation he had had with his father.
“Melias, youâll understand when you have a wife. When youâre able to make your wife happy with what you have, or when your children benefit from it, youâll know how happiness feels.”
“I donât understand why that would make you happy. Itâs just sharing wealth, isnât it?”
