I Give Up on the BL Novel's Male Leads - Chapter 158
She then pulled him closer.
His body felt heavier than expected, and despite her efforts, he didn’t move as she pulled him.
“Come on, move!”
When Illein said that, he chuckled and allowed himself to be pulled, eventually being drawn to her side. She wrapped her arms around him.
He stood there, almost like someone intoxicated by the sweet scent emanating from her, just waiting quietly.
“Why are you upset?”
“There’s someone I need to kill, but I don’t want to.”
“Who is it?”
“My brother.”
Illein wondered if the brother Edwin was referring to was Rodein.
“Do you… have to kill him?”
“He doesn’t listen, and he’s bound to be a problem.”
“Ah… How much do you want to kill him?”
“Very much. But on the other hand, there’s a mix of affection and resentment. I think Iâd regret it if I killed him.”
She found herself staring into his eyes.
“What do you want to say?”
Illein was caught off guard by the way he was acting, almost like a seductive panther, but she spoke honestly.
“I’m worried Edwin will get hurt.”
“Is that all?”
“If the person youâre trying to kill is a wizard… youâll get hurt too. So… donât do it.”
She said that and pulled him into another hug. He looked at her indifferently, not moved by her actions.
“Why? You donât have feelings for me?”
“Me? Am I crazy, Edwin?”
At her words, Edwin couldn’t help but smile.
“You really donât need to react like that.”
“What kind of nonsense are you saying? If you’re going to say things like that, just leave. Go away.”
He chuckled at her words but stood up from his seat.
“Edwin? Are you really leaving? I didn’t mean for you to go…”
Illein was flustered and gazed at him.
“I have somewhere I need to be.”
“Ah.”
“I just stopped by because I wanted to see you.”
Then he leaned closer, cupping her chin, and she was taken aback. As he drew near, her body stiffened.
“Open your mouth. Unless you’re trying to make me angry.”
Without thinking, she parted her lips as he commanded.
He then kissed her lips, his breath mingling with hers. She was startled by his assertiveness but quickly became dazed.
It felt like it wasnât the first time, and she couldnât help but feel strange about it.
But her thoughts didnât last long. His actions were so intense and consuming, it made it hard for her to think about anything else.
When she struggled to breathe, she tried to pull away, but he grabbed her hand and held it down, intertwining their fingers tightly.
Then, he began to push against her so hard that her jaw ached.
* * *
Illein soon realized that she was lying on the sofa.
Her head felt dizzy, and her mind was foggy, as if some unknown command had entered her mind, making it impossible for her to resist.
Was it because of the déjà vu she had felt before?
For a moment, Illein thought she was dreaming again.
Wait, but when she met Edwin just now, she was perfectly fine… Why is this happening again?
She wanted to continue her thoughts, but her mind wouldn’t cooperate.
Illein briefly considered that maybe she was just exhausted from being out for so long.
When she opened her eyes slightly, his red eyes were glaring at her as though he was about to devour her.
It felt like she had become a prey animal, unable to take his eyes off him.
Then, once again, she grew dazed, unable to bear the dizziness, and closed her eyes.
With her eyes shut, Illein felt Edwin’s touch on her hand.
The sensation of his large, rough palm sliding over her shoulder was strangely unsettling. It made her skin tingle, almost as if goosebumps were rising on her body.
Illein opened her mouth, trying to break free from this odd feeling.
“Ed…win…”
“Why?”
“I want to hear your heartbeat.”
“Can I hear yours, too?”
“…Yes.”
He chuckled at her words. Her sudden, unexpected request seemed strangely intriguing to him.
He swiftly took off his coat, unbuttoning his vest in one smooth motion. Without a pause, he removed his shirt.
Even in her dazed state, Illein couldn’t help but notice the numerous scars on his chest.
Unconsciously, she reached her hand toward his chest. Slowly, she pressed her fingers against the scarred areas on his body.
“Whatâs this…?”
“Itâs all from you.”
“Me?”
“Yes.”
Illein smiled at his words, recognizing that he was probably just joking. Even though it felt like a dream, it still didnât make any sense.
“Did it hurt?”
However, strangely, Illein felt a soft ache in her chest as she looked at him with concerned eyes.
“Yes.”
“How bad?”
“I wanted to die.”
He said this while staring at her with an intensity that felt like he might devour her. Illein didnât understand.
Why is he looking at her like that?
But oddly, it also felt strangely sad.
Without realizing it, she found herself wanting to touch his face.
