I Just Wanted to Avoid Death - Chapter 117
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“…Is it really alright to have run away like that?”
Yeshion swallowed dryly, carefully touching his swollen lips.
He’d been kissing Eldis for quite some time when a faint knock at the door had announced the entry of five or six priests into the office.
Eldis had been visibly irritated at having their moment interrupted, while Yeshion had jumped in surprise and quickly fled from the room.
“They must’ve seen it…”
Of course they did, there’s no way they didn’t.
They were kissing in plain sight as soon as the priests opened the door.
Yeshion fanned his burning cheeks, struggling to cool the embarrassment flooding through him. Even now, everything felt surreal.
But reflecting on Eldis’s words, nothing he’d said was actually wrong.
Eldis did say he originally had some form of cleanliness obsession and loathed physical contact with others. That was why Yeshion had been surprised more than once before…
“Haah…”
Still, his heart felt complicated.
Both Eldis and Adelio were originally supposed to be deeply involved with Rosaline, not with himself.
Though he’d never intended to seduce them, he felt somewhat guilty, as though he had stolen affection that rightfully belonged to Rosaline.
Yet if he tried to ask Rosaline about it…
“What are you even talking about? Yeshion, are you into unnecessary self-torment now?”
…Rosaline would probably say something like that, wearing a face full of exasperation.
He would likely continue, “They’re the ones who like you, so why are you even asking me if that’s okay?” Rosaline was never the kind of person who considered the affections he received from others as something naturally owed to him.
Yeshion paused his steps, letting out a long sigh.
“…Maybe this is all just an excuse.”
Perhaps he was just trying to find reasons to avoid facing the sincerity of Eldis’s feelings.
He didn’t dislike Eldis—far from it. In fact, he knew Eldis was far better a person than he deserved.
His calm voice and composed manner, his unwavering sincerity in every word, and the gentle smiles he gave…
Moreover, in their eighteenth life, Eldis hadn’t hesitated even for a second to throw himself into danger, getting stabbed just to protect him. How could he possibly dislike someone like that?
“But…”
Yet despite everything, he’d never once thought of Eldis as a romantic interest.
“I intend to seduce you with all my strength.”
At that moment, Eldis’s recent words resurfaced vividly in his mind.
Heat surged up his cheeks, and Yeshion coughed awkwardly, hurriedly resuming his previously paused steps.
‘I never imagined he could say something like that.’
In the original story, their prowess in bed was described vividly, but their tender romantic moments were never mentioned.
That was why Yeshion never thought of them romantically. He assumed that if they ever became involved, it would be purely physical, never emotional.
“…I never expected to get involved so deeply, either.”
Initially, he’d only planned to run away.
Both Adelio and Eldis were people he’d thought he’d never meet again after fleeing. So, he hadn’t even considered thinking of them as potential romantic interests.
Then, later, he’d been so consumed by problems caused by the original ‘Yeshion’ that he’d barely had time to process their feelings at all.
‘I should take my time to think about this carefully.’
He didn’t intend to turn his back on Eldis’s feelings. Eldis was careful with every word and action, so Yeshion, too, wanted to respond thoughtfully.
‘Wait a minute. Then… what about Adelio?’
As he pondered Eldis’s earlier confession, Adelio’s words came to mind.
“If we kiss, we’ll know whether I like you or not.”
