I Just Wanted to Avoid Death - Chapter 146
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Anyone would blush and feel embarrassed when their lips touched and their naked body was exposed. But regardless of that, Eldis knew very well where Yesion’s gaze was directed.
‘The Crown Prince….’
Could it be that what shocked him was the fact he’d been executed in his past life? Or was it because the last person he’d been with before Edward stabbed him… was Adelio?
“I thought you hated him.”
He’d acted like he never wanted to see his face again, gave up the position of a friend at first, and now… he was giving up even more than that.
“But now that you’ve done it with me too……”
Maybe he’d look at him with that same expression now.
May Yeshion’s gaze stay on Eldis just a little longer. May his heart waver, and give him even a sliver of his affection.
With that small prayer, Eldis tightened the arms wrapped around Yeshion. With the desire to be loved more tomorrow than he was today.
* * *
‘……I’m going to die.’
It wasn’t an exaggeration. He really thought he might die. His waist ached like it had been split in half, and he still felt like something was left inside him.
“Ugh, mm……”
Even the smallest movement made it feel like someone was beating his body with a club.
He hadn’t felt this sore even after being with Adelio. Maybe it was because he’d blacked out before the muscle aches could set in.
He was lost in useless thoughts, trying to squirm up from the bed, when he finally noticed someone else lying beside him.
“Archpriest……?”
It was Eldis.
Yeshion looked at him, startled.
He was breathing slow and deep, sound asleep. It seemed uncharacteristic.
Yeshion reached out and poked him in the cheek. He’d told him to stop several times last night, and yet he’d pushed him that far.
“The treatment is over now. From here on… it’s my selfish desire.”
He remembered that voice, panting, as he came to in a haze.
Heat surged to Yeshion’s face, and he clenched his fists.
“Just wait……”
If it ever happens again, I’m the one who’s going to torture you.
He thought it before he could stop himself, then immediately came to his senses.
‘What do you mean again?!’
It was supposed to be a treatment, but he must have let himself go completely in the rush of pleasure.
With a face flushed red, Yeshion fanned his cheeks and stared quietly at Eldis’s face.
“He really is ridiculously handsome……”
When he’d first transmigrated into this world, he’d been shocked just looking at Eldis’s face. He couldn’t believe someone that good-looking could exist.
He thought he’d get used to it the more he saw it, but it wasn’t a face you got used to.
If Eldis had been the kind of man who smiled more easily, maybe Yeshion would’ve kept staring just to see that smile.
‘Adelio does smile more.’
Maybe that was why his eyes had drifted to him more naturally.
Thinking vaguely, Yeshion leaned back against the bedhead and poked Eldis’s soft cheek again.
“Mm……”
Was he that exhausted? Well, of course. He’d kept going even after Yeshion passed out. It was no wonder he was tired.
Feeling petty for no reason, Yeshion pouted and gave his cheek a gentle pinch.
“……What were you so afraid of?”
Just like Adelio sometimes did, he pressed the tip of Eldis’s nose. He was still, undeniably, a beautiful man.
‘I wanted to pretend not to notice.’
But last night, in the heat, Eldis’s eyes had overflowed with emotions he’d never seen before.
Anxiety. Restlessness. And even a possessiveness toward Yeshion.
It was as if he were shouting, look at me. As if he were begging him to see, not just his desire, but his vulnerable self beneath it.
When Yeshion gently rubbed the cheek he’d pinched, Eldis leaned his face into that hand.
“Don’t……”
“Yes?”
“Don’t abandon me……”
