I Became a Barbarian's Bride - Chapter 120

His tongue moved relentlessly, exploring every corner of her mouth, pulling hers along, nibbling lightly without causing pain, though the sensation sent a shiver down her spine, a tingling thrill that felt as though her tongue could be severed at any moment.  

“You’re really something.”  

“…Haa… haa.… What?”  

“You always make me feel strange.”  

Kagan’s cryptic words left Nisha looking puzzled.  

She stared at him with a perplexed expression, lightly touching her slightly swollen lower lip, still catching her breath.  

Her frail body couldn’t seem to keep up with him, leaving her unsure of how to handle herself.  

“If you want to, if that’s what you desire, go ahead.”  

Nisha tilted her head in confusion at his words.  

Just moments ago, he seemed adamant that she shouldn’t do such things, and now he was saying it was fine? What kind of mood swing was this?  

“I’ll give you enough satisfaction so you don’t feel the need to do anything like that.”  

“…What?”  

“So you’ll stop seeking your worth in those actions, so you’ll feel that just living is enough.”  

“…I don’t…quite understand what you mean…”  

Nisha’s eyes darted nervously, locking onto his impossibly beautiful gaze, so inhuman in its intensity.  

“It’s something you’ll have to feel for yourself rather than me explaining it. But know this—I’m content with just you, Princess.”  

“…….”

“I have no intention of letting in any woman other than the Princess, nor do I have the heart to lose her in front of my eyes,” Kagan Xieman said. 

Nisha frowned slightly, as if hearing something odd, yet she turned her head away in silence, clearly not wanting to continue the conversation.  

“For a Khan, there is only one Katun. Sure, there can be as many concubines as one pleases… but I don’t see the need.”  

Perhaps his father’s influence was significant.

He had grown up watching a man devoted solely to his wife, and perhaps somewhere along the way, it became a principle deeply ingrained in him.  

Regardless of whether love was involved or not, Kagan had no intention of bringing another woman into his life.  

“You don’t… love me, though, do you?”  

“Love…?”  

Kagan muttered the word quietly, his face reflecting slight confusion. Then he scratched his cheek and let out a faint laugh.  

“Well, I suppose not.”  

Tilting his head slightly, he replied.  

Kagan was never one to fully grasp the concept of love. He never had. Despite his bold and combative nature, he struggled with more subtle and intricate emotions.  

Whether or not love was part of what he felt for her, he didn’t know.  

But what he did know was that he had brought her here, she had become his bride, he was the Kagan, and she was the Katun. The two were now bound together in a way that could not be undone.  

And to him, that was enough.

A lifelong partner, companion, and confidante. 

That’s what Kagan needed, not love. 

Of course, love might blossom between them one day, but he wasn’t thinking about that just yet. 

Naturally, the thought of her being with another man or bringing in a new concubine irritated him immensely.  

“Anyway…”  

Kagan interlaced his fingers with Nisha’s and held her hand tightly as he spoke.  

“You can live just for yourself, Nisha. That’s what it means to be a Katun. You’re someone who can live as you wish.”  

As the queen mother who inherently loses so much just by existing, a Katun’s freedom was never infringed upon by the Kagan. Whatever she wanted, she was allowed to have.  

It was the same with the previous Kagans and Katun.  

Kagan’s father had never opposed his mother’s desires, as long as they weren’t dangerous. Although it wasn’t his father who had taken her sight, he still acted as if he owed her a great debt, always trying to do something to make it up to her.  

Watching that had been quite an eyesore.  

“Anyway, if you want something, anything at all, just tell me, Nisha.”  

“…….”

“And when you take your medicine, I’ll be by your side.”  

“W-what? Why… why would you…!”  

Nisha’s face turned pale with shock.

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