I Wish You Well In Your Next Love, My Love - Chapter 77
Gerard probably hadn’t lied to me.
It could be that, from the start, he had planned to show his face to me only briefly before going to the banquet hall.
But how could life ever go exactly as one intended? His arrival time had probably been delayed somehow, and he had only adjusted his priorities.
“He won’t come now.”
The words flowed out like a sigh as I climbed the iron stairs.
“……”
This was better, rather.
It was right that this should end here.
I unlocked the door with the key I had left under the rotten flowerpot and went inside.
A dark room with not a trace of warmth was waiting for me.
This is my place.
The past month he had stayed in this house had only been a foothold to drop me into a deeper abyss.
Only now did a sense of danger come over me.
My bedding had been stolen, but what of it.
Compared to having memories stolen, it was nothing.
I gathered together the books and clothes Gerard had left behind and pushed them into the place where the bedding had been.
I would not open that side again unless I was moving.
To adapt to the daily life that had returned, I deliberately moved even more diligently.
First, I opened the window wide and aired out the room.
So that all the body scent he had left behind would leave.
In the middle of the night, I cleaned the window frame I had been putting off, and I swept and mopped the floor too.
I tidied the house until sweat poured down my body.
I didn’t know what I was trying to wipe away by doing this.
After taking a bath, I lay blankly on the bed with the lights off.
“Hic.”
All of a sudden, tears burst out as if water were leaking from a cracked wall.
They were tears so sudden that even I couldn’t understand them.
“Huu…”
What is this, why am I like this.
It was my first time experiencing this too, so laughter leaked out along with it because my situation was ridiculous. Even if someone pointed a finger and called me crazy, I would have had nothing to say.
I had no idea how fortunate it was that I was alone in this room.
“Ah, damn it.”
Roughly wiping around my eyes with my sleeve, I turned onto my side. Tears poured endlessly onto the pillow.
Emotions are more honest than the mind.
As if settling the price of my sins, I faced the feelings I had deceived until now.
‘I knew the rainy season was over.’
I had pretended not to know the condition that I would only let him stay until the rainy season ended.
I did not dare have the right to love you again, and the very act of looking you in the eye and talking to you was deception toward you.
Even though I knew everything, I remained by your side, using your stubbornness as an excuse.
“I really hate this.”
I hate myself like this so much.
But on the day your curiosity stopped, I was going to stop too. This much is true.
And today. At last, that day had come.
I pounded my aching chest with my fist.
It was when I wiped my wet face with my palm.
Baaang!
At the noise so fierce it blew away my thoughts, I sat bolt upright.
The loud barking of a stray dog in the neighborhood followed after it.
“…What is it?”
Someone was in front of the iron door.
I took a mop from the storage room and approached the iron door while muffling my footsteps.
“Uht.”
A sharp energy mercilessly stabbed all over my body.
No way!
The moment the thought reached me, I threw the mop aside and hurriedly opened the door.
A huge body poured down over me.
“Ugh, Lord Castion?!”
At the rampage rate that had risen to a dangerous level, I felt as if my breath were being choked off.
Reflexively, I clung to his solid back.
The breaths pouring against my ear were not normal.
The uniform that was always neat and properly aligned was in complete disarray, and his firm skin was as hot as an iron ball.
“Lord Castion, come to your senses. Lord Castion!”
Even when I shouted urgently, he only panted and could hardly understand my words.
My mind was scattered by the sudden crisis.
Did something happen at yesterday’s banquet? He hadn’t even gone into the field, so why had his rampage rate suddenly risen?
It was a miracle that he had come to my house with his rampage rate soaring this high.
“Haa, ha… my body is, hot.”
I could feel his reason standing at the edge of a steep cliff.
The situation was more serious than when he had lost consciousness before from his rising rampage rate.
If Gerard lost his rationality here, it would lead straight into a rampage before I could stop it.
