I Wish You Well In Your Next Love, My Love - Chapter 95
Gerard does not know how much a single word, a single phrase from him can stir my heart.
Inside me, guilt and the greed of being unable to push him away scattered dizzily. But fortunately, my head knew the right answer.
“I only did what I had to do as a Purifier. Still, if you truly want to take responsibility, please send a lump of gold to the front of my house. You’re rich, after all.”
I spoke without stopping. He listened quietly, then slightly furrowed his brow.
Sweat dripped down beneath my chin, and my two legs, lowered beneath the bed, were trembling.
Unlike him, who looked not only languid but even bored, my body was violently shaken.
“Why are you sulking?”
He said it as if he had no idea why.
“…I’m leaving.”
“What if I say I won’t let you.”
“You have no right to do that, my lord.”
His hand touched below my navel. When his fingertips pressed in with steady force, I felt my flesh sink in.
“I came inside you that much, so maybe I’ve gained at least a little right.”
“…There’s no way.”
During their training days, the Awakened are required to receive a semi-permanent contraceptive procedure. There was no way I could get pregnant.
“What if I didn’t have my seed tied?”
It was a lie. He might be able to fool others, but not me. If I could have gotten pregnant, my belly should have swelled several times over years ago.
I turned my head and avoided his eyes.
“That makes no sense.”
“How are you so sure? Have you taken mine before?”
He asked as he hooked my hair around his finger and twirled it. Even though I knew he was continuing the conversation with a nasty joke to keep me here, my heart dropped for a moment.
“I’m telling you, I didn’t have it tied.”
I collected myself so as not to get swept up by him.
“…If I were carrying your child, my lord, I would marry you before my belly began to swell. You would have to prepare it grandly enough to invite everyone in the capital as guests. And my position must absolutely be that of your lawful wife. I am very jealous and possessive, so I absolutely cannot watch you take another concubine. If you take Arvina or another woman as your wife, I will scratch your face every night, and on any day you even share your body with a concubine, I will set the room on fire. And…”
I swallowed the saliva gathered in my mouth and looked back at Gerard. He jerked his chin at me as if telling me to continue.
“…And, if you leave me as a single mother or tell me to get rid of the child, I will submit your atrocities to every newspaper and embarrass you. I’ll make sure you’re called an irresponsible man who’s loose with his lower half.”
Pfft. Gerard’s mouth curved softly.
“But why do you look like you’re the one being threatened?”
“……”
“Good, I’ll look forward to it. Be jealous and monopolize me.”
It had been my trump card of a threat, but it did not work on Gerard in the slightest. It was probably because of my pitifully trembling voice.
“…I’ll be going.”
“I can’t win against you. Then let me at least see you home.”
I stubbornly shook my head and rose from my seat. The clothes I looked down at were not mine. Had Gerard been the one to wash me and change my clothes too?
“I’ll go alone.”
“What should we do. I’m pretty stubborn too.”
Gerard draped his uniform jacket over my shoulders. I immediately pulled the jacket down and handed it back to Gerard.
Now irritation was starting to rise. I was so drained that it would not be strange if I collapsed at any moment, and having to deal with Gerard on top of that was becoming more and more exhausting.
“I don’t need it.”
“It feels like we’ve gone back to square one just because we didn’t see each other for a few days. I thought we’d gotten a little close. Was it just me?”
“You can get close to anyone you want, my lord.”
It was the moment I tried to open the door. Suddenly, the strength left my legs, and my body staggered.
“And you still say you’re going alone?”
He said, holding me firmly.
“Yes. Let go of me.”
“Why don’t you just listen?”
“I don’t want to.”
“Haa, Louize.”
The anxiety sitting in my chest and the desire to escape this tension right now and rest exploded at the top of my head.
“Please, just please, Gerard!”
I shook my head and roughly pulled myself out of his arms.
